Porn again, thinking about him...

Bored

I watched porn for the first time last week. It's not like I haven't seen any nudity before, I have seen movies with nudity and sexual content, but I've never had the need to seek for porn until last Friday. I felt lonely and being in the state of the New Year, I guess I just wanted something to spice my brain.

I sat in front of the TV, home alone, and surfed through the channels. The Girl on Girl action wasn't as appealing as I thought it would be; some black guys really have long cocks; the amateur porn was disappointing; I didn't find any gay porn; the settings in some channels were dull and the lighting was terrible.

The scenes I liked the most were:

1) A man and a woman, both blond, doing it on a bed, but her moans were really good. His moves were sexy and that turned me on. Too bad he wasn't skinny enough; he's too muscular for me.

2) Two girls, one brunette and the other one blond. The brunette was performing oral sex on the blond, and boy, she loooooved it. Her body was shivering like crazy and you could see she was really happy with the brunette's performance, or as I perceived.

3) There was a muscular guy and a dark hair girl. Her boobs were fake but still amusing. She was wearing red long boots, and her face expressions and her smuttiness were unforgettable. And the way she grabbed her tits, biting her nipples and licking herself, was wonderful.

Ok man...

I might or not like you, and although I feel guilty when I see your pics on internet where I shouldn't be looking at, I can't stop thinking about you. It might be a crazy obsession or just horniness.

I see your innocent face and I just wanna pervert you.

Too bad you will never be mine. I should've tried you know, invite you somewhere to get to know each other and maybe something would've have happened. But no, stupid me and my insecurities/paranoia froze me beside you.

Black

So here I was lying on the right side of a bed, but I was the man, I had a penis. Then, next to me, was Gabriel*, asleep, who was wearing a dress and black stockings. His legs looked delicate and warm, a warmth I was looking for inside of him, so then I kinda woke him up, and had sex... But he had a vagina...

Then, we were running from someone. We were crossing the freeway and looking for a safer place. There was somebody else in the scene, but I can't remember who. We saw some bicycles and cars. Gabriel and I were laughing, happy to be together again, not regretting anything from the past...


I wish I was that happy in real life...




*Actual name modified.